When loneliness finally starts biting you to bits, all you wish is to be sociable enough for survival. My initial mode of survival was RIPU!!! my younger brother, who I regret torturing at every instance I was bored. I loved him and HATED HIM! I tricked him and FOOLED HIM!, and he always BELIEVED ME!! he is a blessing and I have always known it, but really hard to accept it when he is actively present next to you.
I have always been a very charming kid with lots of friends, and quite some foes. Haven't had as many awesome school memories as I have of my college, as the sense of envious friendship forever floated around my aura.
Chinky slowly sneaked into my life and we lived through the major part of it. Life seemed so much more difficult, while looking out of my window, holding my Chemistry book(that I resent) during my 10th boards and even worse when all I wanted was to be in a hostel during my 12th and wasn't allowed to. I left my beloved city, followed my dreams and slowly learnt to live by myself. I liked being independent and responsible for whatever I did or wanted to do. Walk alone to wherever I fancied, eat alone how much ever I wanted and sleep alone through the thunder and lightening( still scares the hell outta me).
When finally Manipal happened, (IT SPOILT ME) and a not so adorable roomate was enforced upon me. Very little did I know that it was just a beginning to a long and luxurious vacation. I miss my ROOMATE! yes i do! i have hated being around her, and the last thing I ever wanted was to be her friend. But, destiny put us togather all through the 3 years of my college life and I finally appreciate being destined to that.
Because, right now I feel lonely as hell and I could kill to be back to my hostel..........
Having very mean ways of expressing love, I have always ended up hurting people close to me resulting in bad friendship :/ . But, that is exactly how RIA is. She is a horrible LOVA!!!
Friendships happen fast for me. They are over sooner than that. Very few people can stay consistently close to me, and the one's who can are really IMPORTANT!!!
One such important person is LIJU!!!, he is great friend and an amazing mate, FLATMATE :) , he cooks, cleans, irons, washes and the only thing that he can't!!are the DISHES which ain't no BID DEAL!!, but whoever gets him is gonna be dayuuummm lucky, he is an ABSOLUTE PACKAGE!! :P (he spoilt me the most, BIG SPOILY)
OK, now! don't judge me, that is not why i need a mate. I need to talk to someone, like someone for real and not on skype or on the phone. Someone who can wake me up or someone who I can depend on. But, if that is too much to ask for then I don't even mind getting a dog. I feel lonely cooking for myself and eating it all by myself. It is also very difficult and annoying to do the groceries all by myself.Going for a walk alone. Nobody to click a photo of me with Hugh laurie's dimple cheeked poster (it's already gone now :'( , GOD!! I LOVE HIS SMILE :)) and yes! i have friends, loads of them. They live far and wide, spread across the city of LONDON. But, they are busy running the rat race. Except for a few occasional and planned hang outs they don't wanna waste their precious time, when they could rather have SEX or get DRUNK!! (OH WOW, not so exciting :@) I miss my friends and i need a roomate. A sucky one would do, and I could train her to have an awesome life. But, living alone is not a joke. Man is a social animal and that is exactly why we can't live alone.
I have always been a very charming kid with lots of friends, and quite some foes. Haven't had as many awesome school memories as I have of my college, as the sense of envious friendship forever floated around my aura.
Chinky slowly sneaked into my life and we lived through the major part of it. Life seemed so much more difficult, while looking out of my window, holding my Chemistry book(that I resent) during my 10th boards and even worse when all I wanted was to be in a hostel during my 12th and wasn't allowed to. I left my beloved city, followed my dreams and slowly learnt to live by myself. I liked being independent and responsible for whatever I did or wanted to do. Walk alone to wherever I fancied, eat alone how much ever I wanted and sleep alone through the thunder and lightening( still scares the hell outta me).
When finally Manipal happened, (IT SPOILT ME) and a not so adorable roomate was enforced upon me. Very little did I know that it was just a beginning to a long and luxurious vacation. I miss my ROOMATE! yes i do! i have hated being around her, and the last thing I ever wanted was to be her friend. But, destiny put us togather all through the 3 years of my college life and I finally appreciate being destined to that.
Because, right now I feel lonely as hell and I could kill to be back to my hostel..........
Having very mean ways of expressing love, I have always ended up hurting people close to me resulting in bad friendship :/ . But, that is exactly how RIA is. She is a horrible LOVA!!!
Friendships happen fast for me. They are over sooner than that. Very few people can stay consistently close to me, and the one's who can are really IMPORTANT!!!
One such important person is LIJU!!!, he is great friend and an amazing mate, FLATMATE :) , he cooks, cleans, irons, washes and the only thing that he can't!!are the DISHES which ain't no BID DEAL!!, but whoever gets him is gonna be dayuuummm lucky, he is an ABSOLUTE PACKAGE!! :P (he spoilt me the most, BIG SPOILY)
OK, now! don't judge me, that is not why i need a mate. I need to talk to someone, like someone for real and not on skype or on the phone. Someone who can wake me up or someone who I can depend on. But, if that is too much to ask for then I don't even mind getting a dog. I feel lonely cooking for myself and eating it all by myself. It is also very difficult and annoying to do the groceries all by myself.Going for a walk alone. Nobody to click a photo of me with Hugh laurie's dimple cheeked poster (it's already gone now :'( , GOD!! I LOVE HIS SMILE :)) and yes! i have friends, loads of them. They live far and wide, spread across the city of LONDON. But, they are busy running the rat race. Except for a few occasional and planned hang outs they don't wanna waste their precious time, when they could rather have SEX or get DRUNK!! (OH WOW, not so exciting :@) I miss my friends and i need a roomate. A sucky one would do, and I could train her to have an awesome life. But, living alone is not a joke. Man is a social animal and that is exactly why we can't live alone.
